SANEINSANE
I am insane. I have seen the sane world that says and says and says again ceaselessly, continuously. The sane world says to create reason, it says to acknowledge reason, it says to shape reason and says out of Reason and at times Out of reason. The sane world creates kids, manufactures human beings, develops them into individuals and constructs an individual crowd only to conclude saying, “you should not have been born”. Such a wonderful sanity! I was also born out of it, now they say i am out of it. “you are insane”, a unanimous voice said. We look alike but think different. The fact is it thinks different. To be more precise, it thinks. It said, “I know”. I said, “I don’t know”. It said, “You are worthless talking to”. I said, “I don’t know”. It said, “You know nothing. You understand nothing. You realise nothing. You feel nothing. You are insane.” I said, “I don’t know”. It said, “ You irritate me, you are senseless. You should understand. You are spoiling my time. You are simply incorrigible” I said, “I don’t know”. It said, “Why don’t you understand anything? Why don’t you say anything? Why don’t you respond? Why don’t you react?” I said, “Because I don’t know”. “How ridiculous! Its unpardonable. Just look at the audacity! See how it argues now! Duffer, idiot, senseless. You are insane, remain in your domain...” (It continued to say. The sane world blabbers a lot). I said, “No. Why don’t you understand, I don’t know.” It said, “ Try to understand, only then you would understand. You don’t even try and keep saying...I don’t know...I don’t know. Don’t you think, you should understand things?” I said, (i am not telling a lie) that I don’t think, I don’t know how to think. It said, “See, channelize your thoughts, understand good and bad, logical and illogical, sane and insane. Try and distinguish. Criticize and analyse.” Frankly speaking, I was not getting anything. It interrogated again, “Are you getting anything?” I assured again, “I DON’T KNOW”. It said, “Try, see there are different ways of looking at something. You may find it this way or that way and even the third way is quite valid from one perspective.” I cannot recall its words anymore but it was talking about something called ‘meaning’ and ‘perspective’ and ‘order’ and ‘disorder’ and...and...and...many more things strung in between the ands. They must have suffocating, suppressed in between the ands. Anyway, i said again, “I DON’T KNOW” It was hardly listening. It was saying something again. Before it started, i was in severe headache. I thought...(oh no! I could think now) I said, not to them (insane enough to do so)
“IT IS USELESS LISTENING TO THE SANES.”
And i disappeared. The sane world is still talking but. And now i know they are talking about me.
How Sane!
Glad to be insane
Richa
4th feb 2010
Insane is incredible.
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